Black specks

I'm thinking of closing up the shop. See, I'm currently year 3 going onto year 4. I have 1 more school year and then I will be starting work as an auditor. I don't believe that I have the time to maintain my blogshop while I'm working. Closure is a matter of sooner or later.

I started out this blogshop with a passion, a passion for makeup. I love makeup and I always love watching Youtube videos where all the beauty gurus do tutorials and hauls. I love how it transform people with different looks. People always say that it is better to do something that you love rather than something you hate. This may be true in some aspects. I still love watching Youtube videos, stalking stores for new product launches and reading reviews on Makeupalley. I try to bring in items that are highly raved about and make it as affordable as I can. I love exploring new products and it may seem that opening a blogshop will be a fabulous idea.

However, this blogshop has slowly evade my love for makeup. Someone once told me that if you are working for something that you loved and have a passion for, no matter how much you love it, the work aspects will eventually corrode your love.

I disbelieve him at that moment. I thought, doesn't this make your work more 'workable' since you have a passion for it? Doesn't it make it more interesting than the typical 9-5 jobs?

But now, I understand what he said. My passion for makeup has slowly decreased. I will say that it has been  dirtied by black specks of hatefulness. I hate the times whenever I put up sale post for new products, excited that it will rock someone's world and it doesn't sell. I hate the times when shipment arrive damaged and orders get delayed. I hate the times when mails get lost and customers get frustrated. I hate the times when customers are late for meetup.

Sometime, I just want to go back to the initial me, the initial girl that simply love makeup.